incoherent

my silence betrays me; for too long i would rather give the polished impression that i have it all together when i really don't.

stay awhile, be mine. maybe we could pretend for an hour or two...you were you are am i are you? i don't know where we go. i want to hold you. i want to run away. i don't want to feel. you twist within me. i want to feel you. i don't want these tears that slip down my cheeks. i turn to be alone. arms of coldness. words denied. so far we have come, so far apart together, yawning distance growing wider. your eyes smile. you are warm you call me and i huddle within myself. weep icy shards of warm tears. hold this cold heart against you. embittered empowered impassioned the paths we walk together away from all this? i don't know. i don't understand. i can't fathom the way this works, or doesn't. sincerity cuts. i am numb and speechless. overwhelmed. helpless.

has it been a year since dreams were birthed? almost.